A Big Project...

I can feel the winds of freedom brushing past my invisible wings. Doing things without worries and guilt is really a good feeling.

I thought I would have more time literally doing nothing, but I was wrong. On my way back to after a wonderful dinner, I realized that I just got myself into a Big Project! A Big Project of Small Little Things.

When I know I am free, when people ask for help, I will offer my time more freely. They are not big favors, just little ones like getting a loaf of bread from a nearby supermarket.

When I know I am free, I will go around doing new things or engage in activities I always wanted to do. Small little things like going out with friends to have coffee or attempting or rather failing to make prata at my home kitchen.

Before I knew it, all these Small Little Things became A Big Project, and again, time is a luxury I no longer have; maybe I never had it in the first place.

Someone once told me that the direction that I used to heading in my journey to find happiness and a meaningful life is not the only direction I can go head, because there is joy in doing nothing as well. There must be wisdom in the "joy in doing nothing" but I am not wise enough to comprehend the deeper interpretations yet.

I have found happiness and fulfillment in the direction I headed, so now I am turning back and try to find and experience a different path. This path is more difficult then the previous, but at least I feel that I am making good progress.

I always like good challenges, but then if I keep this "hobby" up, then it is hard to find the "joy of doing nothing". Okay, my journey has just gotten more difficult. XD