Tuesday Night...

Its has been quite a while since I last blog. Actually it has only been 6 days, but I always have this illusion of time; an illusion that what happens a day go seemed to happened a week ago. I guess it is the price I have to pay for sleeping 6 hours a day and packing a inhumane schedule.

But despite so, I felt like I have been living my life to the fullest and not wasting every single second of my time. Working, spending time with my family, hanging out with friends, playing games, exercising and sometimes, just stare at the fishes in the fish tank.

Sometimes I feel rather weird that even being such a loner (I am happy being alone actually), I actually had a bunch of good friends that I can hang out with.

Sunday went to SLS with my brother to buy casing. We were looking for the cheapo S$20 casing but they seemed to be extinct. The cheapest we can find was S$35 so we decided give it a miss. Met up with BX to help him buy his webcam and mouse. But in the end he only got a mouse as a webcam seemed a little "waste of money". I also met up the JJ to collect Eusoffworks' computer back and luckily I manage to wrestle the car away from my dad that day to avoid having the need to haul a CPU from Bugis all the way back to Boon Lay.

Monday suppose to meet BX and WZ at 6pm for dinner and movie and Vivo City. But I was a little (1.5 hours actually =p) late because something happened. So end up I have to treat them dinner. So we made our way to Secret Recipe and had a quick dinner because the show was about to start soon. BX ordered the most expensive dish without even feeling a little "paiseh". =p That is the problem of having friends who are too close to you; "paiseh" is no longer in our dictionary anymore. Friends are meant to be "exploited" and "cheated" I guess. =p To be honest, I am also guilty of "exploiting" BX so getting "cheated" of a meal is fine with me. =D

After a hard day's work, a good dinner with great company is certainly rewarding. And I planned to take pictures of the food, but when I realized I forgot to do so, the only thing left was the receipt. =P


After the movie ended at 11.30pm we manage to just catch the last train and I was lucky to catch the last bus as well, else it would be a long and tiring walk back home for me. All in all, Vivo City is a really big shopping mall, but I did not get a chance to explore it because I was late. But I am quite sure I will be there again because there seemed to have quite a number of restaurants serving yummy food! =D

Today, life is back to normal. Working hard and trying out new things. Behind every successful story, there is a painful process that few people know of. I always believe in working hard for something I want, so I will not ever regret missing out a good opportunity. But fatigue has been catching up with me quietly and I guess it is about time I take a short break from work. Forgetfulness is a good sign of tiredness.

With regards to my results, I am really satisfied with them! Even with all the Hall Activities, I am glad that I did not lose my focus. Got a clear picture on what to specialize now at last!

Going to rest now and my MSN is popping up non-stop. I also would like to apologize to those whom I did not return calls or SMSes; phone bill exploded again. Please pardon me. =P

Drawing The Line...

"Creativity vs Chaos"
"Determination vs Stubbornness"
"Passionate vs Obsessed"
"Enthusiastic vs Fanatical"
"Resourceful vs Cunning"
"Calm vs Cold"

It is rather obvious that the above 6 lines sort of describes me. At the end of the day, when people look at me, it is only natural that they draw a line inside their mind and "categorize" me.


So what is the difference between "Chaotic" and "Creativity"? To me, it is all the same. "Passionate" and "Obsessed" are the same thing as well and it is solely dependent on where each individual draws the line; the same line that separates "Enthusiastic" and "Fanatical", and many other things.

Each of us draws our line differently, at different places and I feel that it is important not to understand how people draw their lines, but instead be wise enough to accept that people draw "lines" differently from ourselves. Of course, it would also be good if we are able to understand where we ourselves draw the line so we are able to better management our own biasness, we well as level of acceptance towards different people.

So where do you draw your line? Is it different every time?

If it is different for the same character attribute on a different person, then you are biased fellow. If the "line" is drawn on the same spot for everybody, it means that you tend to make decisions on the character of the person based on your own set of criteria in a fair manner. I have come to notice that, sizing-up people is a very important aspect of my life, so learning to draw a "line" nicely can be quite useful. =)

Anyway it is just a random though (again =p). It has been a long and tiring day, so I guess I shall end my entry here and try to force myself to sleep more! =D

Take care my friends!

Happy Mother's Day!

Finally got some time to blog a while and its been a week since my last entry. My schedule is rather packed but I have been working hard to achieve the Model Monday balance; and so far I have been doing well.

Nothing really interesting happened over the week. I am just going about my usual business as usual, things went on as they should and nothing really significant has changed.

On Saturday, I was a rather hectic rush to meet up with BX, WZ and Ah Nae. We are suppose to meet at 11.30am at Novena, but I was 20 minutes late. I never like being late, but sometimes my schedule just doesn't allow me to be early. Sometimes with the limited time I have, I have to choose between being a good brother who choose to fetch my brother back from camp or being a good friend who is punctual. However, there is one good thing though, and it is that both my family and friends are understanding people who knows the kind of schedule I run on.

I felt rather bad being late and I immediately apologized to my friends the moment I met them. We went across the train station and dined at HK Cafe. We are suppose to go to an international buffet, but it was fully booked because of Mother's Day.

We sat down and ordered some food. BX said that he was really surprised to be able to "secure" my time, so die die he must make this outing happen and WZ was like fanning the BX's flames into my face. After some really good food, we went to loiter at Novena Square, and I guess everyone was rather surprised at I don't have to rush off for another appointment immediately after lunch. While walking around the shopping center, WZ said to me that it was a MIRACLE that they have manage to ask me out. Then I asked them is it really that difficult to ask me out and both of them said yes. Of course Ah Nae is trying not to make too much noise because he is sometimes guilty of this "sin" as well and that he packs a schedules almost as tight as mine (maybe tighter?).

It is good to meet up with friends and we are planning to meet up for badminton in NTU this week. Soon it was evening time and we chit chatted until no voice already, so we decided to go home.

A number of my friends are getting depressed nowadays and it is starting to worry me, and many a times, they told me that I am the only person who is willing to listen to them and that makes me even more worried, because most of the time I would be... missing or trapped in hall most likely.

Model Monday...

Woke up at 9am today to help my dad do some online stuff then drove him to work. Then in the afternoon had lunch with BX at my place, then went to NUS to settle my room stuff and get my laptop reformatted. After that drove BX to repair his Samsung burner (which I recommended him to buy). Well, all I can say is the moment the burner got out of the box, it isn't working; good recommendation by me. =p Again went back to NUS to get my laptop back, after which BX rested at my home a while and then I send him to NTU to listen to his internship briefing.

Spend practically the whole afternoon hopping from one spot to another. But in the process, BX and I made plans to go for an expensive international buffet, indian vegetarian food, badminton, suppers at Yishun and shopping for cheap Levis jeans.

"It is easier to find you during exam time then on any other days lor..."

-BX

Well that sort of rang the bell for me. Where am I on the "any other days"? Where I am when my family and friends are looking for me? But, look at today, I am available to spend a whole afternoon with a good friend. Things are changing for the better; a lot better. My Dreams... I have not stop pursuing them, but I feel like slowing things down a little and make way for other wonderful things in my life. There is no need to rush to fulfill my Dreams I guess.

On the way back from NUS, I ask BX how he feels about my life after spending one afternoon in my life. His sleepy expression tells it all I guess. But to be honest, I like my life "sleepy", even though to some people, my life seemed very exciting. Well, watching an action movie in exciting, but going through one, is madness! Trust me. =D

After sending BX to NTU, I went back home to warm up the PS2 a little and soon it was dinner time. Together with my mum, I drove to fetch my dad back from work and we had dinner together. Just the 3 of us now since both my brothers are in NS.

Then after dinner, I spend my night sitting at the balcony by the fish tank and just thinking about today. Soon I fell a sleep...

I woke up at 10.30pm and now I am blogging. What a wonderful day I had today. I did work, spend time with my family, hang out with a good friend, and spent time with myself! Things are balancing out and that is why today is Model Monday. I shall work towards days like this.

Sometimes from Joshua and maybe HY, I saw my own past. Joshua told me a few week back that playing and enjoying is a waste of time. And it sounded really familiar. It sounded so familiar that I thought it was I would said that; and yes, it was indeed I who said those words.

Responsibilities and unfinished work. I used to not be able to sleep on unfinished work and relax myself while not completely fulfilling my responsibilities. Running away when it gets too much is what I am doing now. When I felt that I have ran far enough and is all recharged, I will turn back and face all the challenges again.

"It is alright to run away from problems. As long as you remember to turn back and face it again, when you feel that you have run far enough."

- Huan Jin

This holiday is time for me to pay back all the time I owe people whom I loved. When the next semester starts, at this point in time, I am not sure if I can still achieve this Model Monday. But lets just allow me to try as much as possible to live in Model Monday for now and do whatever I can to repay my debts.

In case if I owe you anything, just SMS me and let me know! =p

Post-Exams...

Really sorry that I have been MIA to some people these few days (since exams are over). Never enjoyed my life more then any other time in my life! Hanging out with friends, PS2, PC, cooking and slacking(spending time with myself) all packed into this 4 days!

While everything is moving quickly in my life, home seemed to have stood still for me. My room looked the same when I left it a long time ago, my bed smelled the same and everything is at where they suppose to be. Nothing has changed much in the living room too! And the kitchen is still being well maintained by my parents; other then that we now have a new wok which I have yet to put it through my stringent tests. XD

Somehow it seemed like every semester, I studied harder then the last. Don't ask me how I did for the exams. Honestly I don't really know for this semester. Seemed to do better because I can answer more questions. But the truth will only be revealed when the results are out.

There are a couple more people I haven't met up with, so I guess it is time to have a meal with them or something before my life gets hectic again!

So I guess that is all for now. Play too much until too tired to blog. XD

What If...

"What if, the way to a simple life is not simple at all, and that the path to happiness is not a happy one?"

Something to ponder about, but now is definitely not the time for me to think about such things. Just "finished" my cheat sheet for EE2012 and going to put it to the test in the morning to test if it is helpful at all.

Sometimes I feel like I have everything, and all yet all I want to do is to let go of everything I have. I mean when you have nothing, you work your soul out to get everything you wanted, but when you have everything, you feel that they just weigh down on your shoulders and chain you to the ground. Everything come with a price I guess. And I can't help but feel that people can never be contented. The grass is always greener on the other side. And yes, I am greedy! XD

One of the way I thought of to get myself out of this is to make a choice; to decide if I should have everything or nothing. It is not the easiest of choices to me and may even take a me a life time to decide. I guess when I have seen enough and lived long enough, there will be a day when I finally would be able to come to a conclusion. So for now, I shall just leave it as it is.

Just like in the exams, when you can't do a question, skip it first and come back later. =p