A Break Finally!

Since the last time I blog until today at this point in time, I have no taken even a single breather. Been working non-stop like some robot. Every night before I sleep, I will "program" myself with the things I need to do the next day. And the moment I wake up, the program would run and I would just follow it almost instinctively.

Had a lot of fun last weekend. Wasn't home for most parts of the weekend and the time when I am home, I would be rushing to finish up with my schoolwork. Went to out to have dinner with the Eusoff people on Saturday night. I wanted to blog about it earlier this week, but since Melissa has kindly blogged on my behalf, I shall take the liberty to be lazy. =p Anyway here is the link to her blog.

Then on Sunday night, went to see Dance Uncensored. Melissa choreographed a dance and many of us from Eusoff went to support her. It has been like almost a year since I watched any cultural performance since the last time I was involve in DP. Really needed to involve myself in something that is not related before I get too addicted to work.

Times have changed and people change. Some people grew and become mature and understanding, while other became nothing more of a shadow of their past. Sometimes I can't help but think that I am moving so fast that everything around me seemed to be standing still.
That is why I am glad that there are people around me who are moving slow. People who would ask me to slow down for them because they couldn't catch up and show me how beautiful the world actually is.

So many things have happened in these 2 weeks. During MAB dinner this week I saw the future of Eusoffworks proudly stepping on the stage and getting recognized for their hard work. At least the hours I spend writing those nomination forms have not going to waste. =) The award is nothing more then just a piece of paper to me, but when it is given to people who are important to me, it means something else. And recently Audioworks just manage to get our hands on our long awaited T-shirt thanks to the hard work of Andrew.

I hope next year, many of the freshman this year would join back Audioworks and Eusoffworks as seniors. I am tired of the high turn over rate in these committee. I hope to see one day where people enjoy working in these 2 committee and are passionate about their work and not just join for points. After all tech-comm don't usually give a good sense of satisfaction unless to people who are passionate about their work. It is behinds the scene job and there is almost no recognition. No one will see your hard work and appreciate what you did. But what makes me go on? It is because I like the job. I enjoy connecting cables and filming video. I may not be very good at them, but they are my hobbies. I mean must we be good at everything we do? And that the moment we don't do well means we should just abandon that hobby and move on to something else? At the end of the day, maybe we should question ourselves and find out the true reason why we do things? Do we do things so we can prove that we are good? Do we engage in our 'hobbies' such that people would respect us? Maybe at the end of the day it is not a hobby and is nothing but just a tool.

I am staying in hall next year and I hope that I will have the chance to be the Head of Eusoffworks again. There is a strong desire to finish up the job I have started this year. I have sort of laid the foundation this year and next year will be the year for us to shine.

As for Audioworks, I think it is time for me to let someone else be the Vice-Head. I guess I should move on to be Senior Advisor (sounds cool), and continue to build upon the hard foundations that our seniors have left for us.

MINDS, I think I will still go for it once in a while because it is the place where I made a lot of friends. It is really to see how a person like me can actually make a positive difference in the lives of others.

A long time ago, someone asked me why do I always like to engage in activities that at the end of the day, no one appreciates what I have done. Again it is all about passion. And it is the thing that keeps me going strong despite the many obstacles in my path. Of course, no matter how strong I am I must also thank all those who quietly help me cleared out some of the obstacles, those who give me the strength to stand up on my own whenever I fall, and those who did small things what changed my life.

Sometimes I wished that I have the chance to feel bored and lonely. A chance to live in solitude and run to a place where no one loved me. Sometimes my friends and my loved ones seemed to make me forget that I need time for myself. And sometimes it overwhelms me. I am a person who is not used to having people to love me and care for me. That is why sometimes I just run out of my room to PGP and sat by the Koi Pond myself and leave everything behind. Having all my friends and loved ones all trying to cuddle beside makes me take them for granted sometimes. And that is why sometimes I want to run away and remind myself that I need time for myself and that they will not be by my side forever.

I guess it is enough blogging for today. Feeling all freshen up now after writing. Tonight I shall rest and tomorrow it is WAR! And if any of you see me smiling to myself for no reason, please let me know. =)